Chaordic Steps

A rainbow affirmation on my last day at Kalipay Beach, Palawan
(photo by Mary Raynor)

I am now back in Manila to pack up and move out and move to Maia. My language is changing as I prepare to shift into a new way of life. I am being called to speak from my heart. There's a lot to express and share but they remain in my journal for now... lovingly vulnerable and brave until a language that can connect from the core as form can emerge to fully communicate. My life is going through a chaordic (chaos+order) process with all these changes coming up: my room now entering a messy stage with boxes and garbage bags; chicken pox looking sand fly bites all over my body after staying out on an island; fresh acne break outs as a reaction to my body detoxifying with raw food; and phlegm coming out from the detox helping my bronchial asthma heal.  But all is good. All this clearing and cleansing brings up the last few remaining pieces of my intensive inner work last year. I have never been so at peace.

Here's a beautiful poem by Em Claire to share a glimpse of my ongoing reflections.

Peace of I,

Sarah

Art + Advocacy Projects Aug 2011-March 2012

I have been to focused on inner work that I haven't had the chance to share a lot of my art activities since I arrived from Switzerland in August. Here is a documentation of my beautiful co-created art actions for peace and emergency recovery over the last 8 months :-)

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Lost and Found Poem

While clearing through my notes today, I found a silly loving poem I wrote for someone I deeply cared for 2 years ago. What a beautiful way to peacefully let go with the innocence of being children.

These days, in my solitude, I am a blanket to the lovemaking of the sun and moon rising and setting. I am lulled to sleep under the bright white light of night. I am thrilled by the lights twinkling in the dark. I dance with passion while the rain soaks my skin and clothes. I am quenched by the water of the sky. My feet kiss the earth while it responds with more through butterflies. Flowers fall from trees to woo me on the path. The cool wind wraps itself around me in a loving embrace in union with my Beloved.

Letting go of questions, of anger, fear, doubt, pain, what if's. There is a beautiful person to walk with on the road ahead when the time is right.

Every New Dawn

every new dawn

there is that tender moment 

of waking up fresh

from a dreaming journey

we sailed together 

as we tuck ourselves under 

the blanket of stars

fnuggling

and we continue under the hot sun

meeting strangers that keep

us (hiding afraid)

in conversations

in whispers

in unspoken monologues 

thought by thought building 

that wall 

are you there oh beautiful soul?

how beautiful we dissolve 

with bells of laughter 

just as the dusk 

this silliness my little boy

we are 

but children.

For R

Sacred Simplicity

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My first self-opened coconut

On raw food for 3 weeks and my scoreboard says 5 cooked meals so far. That's 21 days minus 5. You do the math. I do the eating with the flow :-) 

I have been living in deep mindfulness and clarity here at Maia Earth Village where I am intending to move into by the end of this month.

Highlights of my day are pranayama every sunrise on top of the hill, chopping coconuts, concocting ways live food can nourish me, walking with butterflies, sleeping under the full moon, identifying botanical medicine sprouting along the path, working on my solar powered macbook, and taking a shower with the rain. And my favorite? Dancing my heart out anywhere I want, anytime I want. Yes, my hands move even while I type away these words you're reading.

I feel so much at home.

This is Maia by Pi Villaraza

I took a big pause from the expected trajectory of my life direction - to venture into aid work as transformative artist and jump on a global mandala journey. I heard the 6 month  countdown to 30 years of earth time ticking and I felt the pressure and the traffic light changing to green at the forkroad. 

Quo vadis Sarah?

Ah but right now, I know the destination, but the journey is in the making in each moment and I am in peace with this affirmation. All that matters is this sacred simplicity every One participates and embodies here at Maia.

The mandala journey continues with ever evolving possibilities with great kindred spirits working on many levels from personal transformation to cancer cure to rehabilitating communities. Daily living here is Knowing, Being, and Doing according to the Maia Mandala in deep observation of Ego and Consciousness.

I know this: I am here to heal myself and to let the Earth be my teacher, healer, artist, and co-creator. 

Here we live in a moment to moment shift attuned to the flow of life source. Where is my fear rooted from? When can I let go of the past and be in the present? How do I now convert what I let go off into what I can receive to assist my own evolution and enlightenment?

I am here NOW. North Korea's feared missile attack this week violating UN Security protocols and being happy for a previous partner finding new love are just part of the ever evolving shifting of my being -- tapping into consciousness in awareness that peace begins within by letting go and in sending light. And in releasing and trusting my inner wisdom and light, I give more space for my own alchemic metamorphosis to flow and manifest over and over again in the knowing, being, and doing of this BEAUTIFUL MANDALA THAT I AM.